Peace Out!
It’s been over three weeks since my last post, what the hell is up? In a nutshell?
- A heinous double commute. I take the train from way the hell out Brooklyn to Bourgie Brooklyn to drop off the Noodle, then commute to school. On a good day, I only have to do that in the morning, but it is exhausting.
- The Fall Disease. The moment that first cool breeze of the season whips up, I catch a cold. Nothing particularly symptomatic, just an ick that flattens me for a couple days.
- Working mom. How do single moms do it? I feel like Mr. Disgruntled and I are barely holding it together. Some days are better than others and our routine will change signicantly upon our move to Bourgie Brooklyn in a week. We’ll be 1 block away from the sitter! And not living stacked on top of someone else’s stuff.
- Tornado. Seriously, did you hear about this? Holy effing crazy.
- Teaching, Reading, Dissertation Writing. My days fly by so quickly and yet I don’t feel like I’m progressing. There’s always more work and hopefully I’m going somewhere and not spinning in circles.
But despite the anxiety about my work, when I stop thinking about whether I should be reading this book or reorganizing my desktop or planning dinner, I’m actually enjoying myself. But it takes SO much work to get to that blissful state of focus. I’m thankful that I can recognize the focus when I’m in it and try to stretch it for as long as I can, but eventually some worrisome thought screams its way into my consciousness and I need to take a walk or go to the bathroom or pump to clear my head.
I guess what I’m saying is: I’m not going to be nearly as active on the blog scene as I was. I’m taking a page from Perpetua and going dark for a while. I may post something now and again (see below), and respond when I can to the amazing blog posts out there; but with all this life noise, I can’t hear myself think. I need to think to write and I need to write to graduate and get out of this infantilizing role of the perpetual student.
So, dear readers, good luck to you all and hope to see you around. In the meantime, watch the crap out of this video of Stephen Colbert testifying before Congress. I think Western Civilization just ate itself:
